You are the one person I was hopping to get serious with and although that is scary and makes me nervous like hell and a bit insecure because its a strong feeling I thought I’d felt before but only with you I realize I never did.
I was willing to give my all to make it work but if I am not good enough to be your girlfriend and if I cannot make you happy, I wish nothing but the best and that you may find a woman who will love and take care of you, who’ll be there for better or worse. I will be happy to know you are happy.
It hurts and it makes me really sad not to be a part of your life because I didn’t and don’t want to lose you but I have to respect your decision and feelings. So, I will leave you to your space. Take the time you need to figure whether we can maintain a friendship relation between us or not. I’ll be here for when you feel at ease with it.
If you never speak to me again, I’ll cope with it and at least I got this chance to pour my soul out.
Thank you for the wonderful times we spent together and above all, thank you for showing me I am capable of true love and to put someone else’s happiness (your happiness) above mine.
I feel meaningless and ugly. I feel as if I’m not good enough and nothing about me will ever stop being wrong. I’m scared of this emptiness that’s filling my soul and most of all I am scared of ending up alone and having only cats to share my awkward self with as if I’m not worthy of love, care and to feel important. To feel as a first choice to someone. I want to know how does it feel to have someone scared of losing me. TO have someone who wants to hold and cherish me every single day of their life. To know what does it feel like to be loved and nothing can break through that powerful bond no matter how hard, low or high can our paths be.
He broke my heart. He broke my soul. He broke me. That single moment when the words “I don’t love you anymore” came out of his mouth… it teared me apart. We shared so much. I shared my entire self with him. I hugged him at night no matter what. I stood there, tall and firm, confident that our love was strong enough to survive any shake or doubt and all I had in return was a smack in the face. Suddenly, I feel as if you never really cared. One can not simply stop loving another person as quickly as a day goes by. You were THE one, that one person I wanted to share a future with.
My heart still screams for you in every beating it takes and I miss you. I miss you terribly. I long for this to be nothing but a nightmare that will soon be over.
“You cut me open and I keep bleeding love”
SOMEONE HELP ME. I FEEL LIKE I’M SINKING AND I DO NOT WANT TO DEPRESS MYSELF EVEN MORE THAN I ALREADY AM. I am so so so so so sick of crying and feeling like a piece of shit.
- Music will no longer auto start. (You can visit my tumblr without getting annoyed by some weird music interfering with yours).
- Playlist edited. Decided to go for soft and relaxing music. (Enabling myself to scroll down my tumblr while drinking a cup of tea while pleasuring my ears).
- Not so focused only on photography anymore. Will also reblog literature and stuff that catches my attention.
Thank you to everyone who did not unfollow me during this not so active period of mine. I love you all.
np cute LoL player ^^
mattmacabre replied to your post: Dear Followers, I have just graduated from university. :D
The minute I woke up, I ran to the computer, logged into our academic portal and checked for my grades and there they were.
I AM AN OFFICIAL LANGUAGES, LITERATURES AND CULTURES, MAJOR IN ENGLISH STUDIES GRADUATE. :D :D :D :D